Rapper Nicki Minaj may sounds like she’ll say anything in her songs, but she’s still trying to figure out how to censor herself around her fans.
“I have to watch my mouth sometimes,” she tells BlackBook magazine. “All of those people who follow me on Twitter? They aren’t my friends. Some of them are fans, but many of them are people who hate my guts and are just waiting for me to tweet something that they can put on their blogs.”
“It’s easy to see 2 million followers and think, ‘Look at all these people who love me!’ But not all of them love me,” she says. “Whether I’m smiling or not, I know that people are always waiting for me to slip up.”
And as for fans comparing her to Lady Gaga — she gets it. Nicki says they both do “the awkward, non-pretty thing.”
“What we’re saying — what I’m saying, anyway — is that it’s OK to be weird,” she says. “And maybe your weird is my normal. Who’s to say? I think it’s an attitude we both share.”
And when it comes down to it, Nicki just wants to be herself.
“Someone once told me, ‘People love the facade of pop stars. It’s not good to be a real person,’ so I lost sleep over it,” she explains. “But then I met tons of people who said, ‘I’ve became a fan of yours after watching that documentary.’ “
“I’m realizing now that I’m never really going to know the rules. I just have to play.”