Now that he has been able to watch The Bachelor with the rest of America, Ben Flajnik realizes that Courtney Robertson's behavior on the show was inexcusable and to be honest, quite shocking. The woman he thought he fell in love with is nothing like the person he watched manipulate him and tear apart the other women on television.
"It's extremely difficult to watch because obviously I have very strong feelings for Courtney and Lindzi [Cox]," Ben tells Chris Harrison in an interview posted on The Bachelor site.
"Even on the group dates, I felt like Courtney was actually cordial. But after watching all of this stuff, Courtney’s behavior, from what I’ve seen, is not okay."
Ben admits that he was surprised by her actions and totally taken aback by the things she chose to say, not only in the private confessionals, but face-to-face with the other bachelorettes.
"It’s extremely difficult to watch that back and watch this person, who ends up in my top two, being so different than what you have seen with her on a personal level," he confesses.
And although he's been judged for his decision to keep Courtney around for this long, Ben says that no matter what choices he made on the show, "there's always going to be critics."
We feel for Ben. Even though it was his choice to bring Courtney all the way to the finale, he obviously realizes that the other women were right and this person he fell for might actually be two-sided.
Do you think he chooses her in the end or will he go with Lindzi? Watch his interview with Chris, below!