Jon & Kate's Strained Premiere

Jon and Kate Gosselin have been going through a very public ordeal, with accusations that each cheated on each other. So it's not surprising that in the premiere of their TLC show, Jon & Kate Plus 8, the couple are mostly filmed in separate interviews and barely speak—even at their sextuplets' birthday party.

"Did I ever think I'd see myself on the front of the tabloids?" said Kate indignantly. "Or see those words that are there? No. It kills me!"

"Very swiftly we turned into two different people," Kate says later as she details how she and Jon have grown apart after 1o years. "And it's just hard."

Both have denied the accusations against them. Meanwhile, Kate has been on on the road for the show and Jon has stayed at home.

"So he's angry with me that he's home and I'm not," Kate said. "Yet he doesn't really feel great about me, so he wants me to travel. It is so involved I almost can't put it into words.

The buzz around Jon's involvement with a 23-year-old woman whom he calls a friend angers Kate, while her press touring, which led to rumors of her affair with a bodyguard, seem even more infuriating to her.

"I think the thing that makes me the maddest is: Jon made some mistakes and he was out and whatever, and that made people question him," she said. "I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm working and traveling. I'll be darned if they're going to take me down with that," she adds. "I have a lot of anger, because this is not where we were supposed to be, this is not what I envisioned for us."

The episode finishes with the couple finally on the same interview couch, facing the question of, "Do you guys know what the future holds?" Neither one answers as the episode ends.