Tearful Ariana Grande Accepts Billboard Award & Calls 2018 The ‘Worst Year Of Her Life’

The 25-year-old took to the stage in her trademark ponytail with a bubble hem mini-dress and thigh high boots. Singing legend Patti LaBelle, who called her “all that and a bag of chips,” presented her with the award.

“I want to say that I find it interesting that this has been one of the best years in my career and one of like the worst years in my life,” Ariana said, audibly choked up.

“I’m not saying that for sympathy,” she insisted. “I’m just saying that because I feel like a lot of people would look at someone in my position right now I guess; Woman of the Year, an artist that could be at her peak, reaching her you know, whatever, and think, you know, ‘She’s really got her s**t together; she’s really on it; she has got it all.’ I do, but as far as my personal life goes I really have no idea what the f**k I am doing.”

"So yeah, it’s been a very conflicting one. I just want to say if you’re someone out there who has no idea what this next chapter is going to bring, you’re not alone in that,” she continued.

She then hilariously admonished herself for nearly being overcome with tears, “Ew, I’m not gonna to cry. I have to pull back. I have to stop that immediately, that’s so annoying.”

Finally she ended her emotional monologue with a message of hope and a vow to put her relationship and failed engagement drama behind her.  “I look forward to hopefully learning to give some of the love and forgiveness that I have given away so frivolously and easily to men in the past to myself this year,” she ended.

Watch Ariana's emotional acceptance speech in the clip above!