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Jeannie Mai Reveals She 'Threw Up All Over The Floor' After Finalizing Divorce & Felt 'Shame' About Failed Marriage
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March 15 2019, Published 6:01 p.m. ET
Jeannie Mai is telling all! She went on her Hello Hunnay web series and opened about her failed marriage to Freddy Harteis. In the most recent episode, "De-Spouse My House," The Real host confessed how her bitter divorce after 14 years left her feeling broken and how she overcame it.
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The 40-year-old revealed that fans always ask her why she constantly talks about her marriage. "I was married for 10 years and dated for four before. It's a huge part of who I am today," she explained.
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She continued her reasoning, "I describe it as moving forward. It has nothing to do with him Freddy and I'm not throwing shade at all. I wish him the best."
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The fashion expert then recounted the day she made her divorce official back in 2018. "I walked out of my attorney's office after I signed the papers. I took a deep breath and threw up all over the floor... It was just so emotional."
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"I used to feel shame that my marriage didn't work out," Jeannie also revealed in an Instagram video for the episode.
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"I drove home to the house I'm sitting in right now, the one I bought with my hard-earned money, and said 'This is not my home,'" Jeannie added. "It's part of my past and the things in this house remind me of my marriage...the house is a part of me."
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The California native said that going through her divorce "forced her to shed her shell." But she believes that it's "not a negative thing. It's just part of her past."
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