Jenelle revealed that she was once "daddy's little girl," until he cut himself out of her life. “I loved and admired him,” she wrote. “I still do in some small way. Maybe one day we can find each other, get to know each other, and he can finally be my father. Until then, he is just my biological dad.”
She explained that she has both “good, bad and heartbreaking” memories of her father, however her mother has told her “horrible stories” about him.
“He worked at a recording studio for a number of years, but playing music never paid the family’s bills,” she wrote. “He had some other habits like carousing and hanging out with his friends instead of staying home. My mother used to give him hell for every little thing he did, but looking back on it now, I wonder if maybe she was just lashing out at him because of his misplaced sense of priorities.”
When Jenelle was 3 years old, she revealed that her father fell down a flight of stirs while he was holding her, resulting in her mother kicking him out of the house.
“I turned out to be okay, but that was the final nail in the coffin as far as my mom was concerned,” she wrote. “He went to live with his own mother when Barbara threw him out. My mother filed for divorce soon after, and by October 13 of ’94, they were officially done. Ten years of marriage gone thanks to bad habits and bad attitude.”
Following the split, her father was still in her life and her parents had shared custody of her, as well as her two siblings Ashleigh and Colin, but then “it was over.” She wrote, “He was out of our lives just like that. I still don’t understand what really happened.”
She explained how she was waiting for her father to pick her up for a visit with her mom’s longtime boyfriend Mike. When her dad saw Barbara’s boyfriend, he backed out of the driveway and never returned. That was the last time she saw him. Following that, she only spoke to him one more time via phone.
“To this day, I don’t know if my mother forced him out of our lives or if he just didn’t want us anymore,” she wrote. “I can’t help but think it was a bit of both. I still love him, but deep down I think I will always be that heartbroken little girl waiting on the porch for her daddy to come and pick her up.”
Jenelle wrote that her two siblings have a different memory of their dad. “There are also the uncomfortable claims my siblings have made about him,” she wrote. “My father was a notoriously mean drunk. He beat up my mom and did questionable things with my siblings whenever he started drinking. It ruined his marriage and pretty much his life.”
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