Justin Bieber reflected on his struggle with being a child star, drug abuse, suicidal thoughts and abusing past relationships in a lengthy Instagram post on September 2. The “I Don’t Care” singer also credited his wife, Hailey Baldwin, for what he now refers to as the “best season” of his life.
Justin, 25, admitted his thoughts got so dark at one point that he started to look at his future as “another bad day.” He revealed, “Sometimes it can even get to the point where you don’t even want to live anymore. Where you feel like it’s never going to change.”
He continued, “Have you noticed the statistics of child stars and the outcome of their life?” Justin explained the “insane pressure and responsibility” he felt as he became famous had a negative impact on him as an adult.
“You see, I didn’t grow up in a stable home, my parents were 18 and separated with no money, still young and rebellious, as well,” he said. “As my talent progressed and I became ultra-successful, it happened within a strand of two years. My whole world was flipped on its head.”
“I went from a 13-year-old boy from a small town to being praised left and right by the world, with millions saying how much they loved me and how great I was,” Justin said. “You hear these things enough as a young boy and you actually start believing it.”
Justin explained he “never even learned the fundamentals of responsibility” as he rose to fame. He continued, “I was 18 with no skills in the real world, with millions of dollars and access to whatever I wanted. This is a very scary concept for anyone.”
“By 20, I made every bad decision you could have thought of and went from one of the most loved and adored people in the world to the most ridiculed, judged, and hated person in the world,” he admitted.
Justin said the “huge ups and downs that come with being an entertainer” made him turn to drug use. “I started doing pretty heavy drugs at 19 and abused all of my relationships. I became resentful, disrespectful to women, and angry,” he revealed.
“It’s taken me years to bounce back from all of these terrible decisions, fix broken relationships, and change relationship habits,” he admitted. “Luckily, God blessed me with extraordinary people who love me for me.”
Justin ended his post with a tribute to his wife Hailey, 22, whom he married in 2018. “Now I am navigating the best season of my life ‘MARRIAGE’ !! Which is an amazing, crazy, new responsibility,” he told fans. “You learn patience, trust, commitment, kindness, humility, and all of the things it looks like to be a good man.”