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'Real Housewives Of New York' Star Tinsley Mortimer Breaks Down Over Mental Health Battle — 'I Couldn’t Be More Depressed'
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May 1 2019, Published 4:42 p.m. ET
Real Housewives of New York City star Tinsley Mortimer ended her big night in tears. In a clip from the upcoming episode, the reality star had a breakdown following her Big Apple Circus ringleader performance and opened up about her depression battle.
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When Tinsley’s mother Dale Mercer attempted to congratulate her daughter on a successful performance, the Bravo celebrity broke down almost immediately. “I wasn’t that good,” she said.
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“I really am emotional,” Tinsley said through tears. “I feel like I don’t do anything good enough. I just feel like I’m doing these things that I feel like I’d be really happy about and I’m not happy. I’m miserable!”
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Tinsley, who broke up with her boyfriend Scott Kluth weeks prior, was still reeling from the split.
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“I worked hard to be in a place where I feel like I just wanted somebody to share it with me,” she told Dale. “And I’m sharing it with you, and I love you, but I don’t want to just share it with you.”
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During her confessional interview, the Gossip Girl guest star explained that her post-performance breakdown highlighted her mental health struggles.
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“I’m sitting here in this big bow and this big dress, and I couldn’t be more what the little girl Tinsley would want to be — rosy cheeks, like I’m at the circus. I was just a part of this,” she told the camera. “And…I couldn’t be more depressed. I couldn’t be sadder!”