The Bachelorette star Meredith Phillips was looking to find her future husband when she went on reality television in 2004. Today, she reveals she has a new goal—staying sober.

"I really can only focus on one thing at a time right now," Meredith, who hasn't touched alcohol in 150 days, tells People.

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Meredith reached her rock bottom six months ago. She got to the point of downing over 20 bottles of wine weekly, and blacking out was a daily occurrence.

"For years I'd wake up every day feeling like I was hit by a truck," she reveals.

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Finally, Meredith knew she had to get help. "I realized I was going to kill myself," she reveals. "There wasn't another path for me other than to stop. I'm finally starting to live my life again."

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