We know transitioning to Twilight celebrity status hasn’t been easy for Kristen Stewart, but it does seem like she’s getting a better handle on it after she smiled big in Germany this weekend. Kristen affirmed her cheerier attitude during an interview with Parade.com, admitting that although playing Bella and becoming an overnight celebrity has been a struggle, she’s learning to love it. Kristen’s new Twilight lifestyle has been a struggle for her both off and on screen.
“It’s when Edward tells Bella it’s all over and they’re never going to see each other again,” Kristen said of her toughest scene to film. “There’s nothing like it in reality. It’s not even like a normal breakup scene because I know what it’s like to get broken up with. I don’t know what it’s like to get broken up with by a vampire. It’s like suddenly whatever has addicted an addict is taken away from them and they go through total withdrawal. That’s what Bella was going through. To portray that was really intimidating.”
Kristen said she tries to make decisions for herself and not think about what others may or may not want her to be doing.
“I get why fans want to know more about the cast as real people and they want us to be together and all of that. I just have to sort of not think about that,” Kristen explained. “People have a hard time separating us from our characters. There’s an incredibly large group that spends most of their time absorbed in the lives of people who’ve gotten some notoriety. It’s strange to me. I can’t have anything to do with it or else I’d step in and mess it up for myself, I just let it fall by the wayside. It doesn’t really affect me.”
Lately, Kristen says she has been much happier about facing her fame.
“As soon as I stopped trying to control everything that came out of my mouth and every picture of me that came out, that’s when I became so much happier,” she said. “It wasn’t like some big turning point; I’ve just grown into being able not to care as much. I realize that I’m not going to be able to influence the way everybody perceives me.”