On Saturday, September 18, the model posted an Instagram of herself posing for a mirror selfie in her closet while lounging in leggings and a sports bra — and she left a tear-jerking sentiment in the caption.
The Cravings author took the opportunity to get candid with her followers about what her body is going through after losing her third baby to pregnancy complications in September 2020.
“It’s really weird when you lose a baby and your body gets paused in time,” she started out the post. “Usually, you’d gain your ‘yumyums I’m praaaagnant!’ weight, then put on the weight of your little bebe. Then, ideally, you’d have your baby. And you would feed it from your boobs and your body would know to charge through and do what it does to get you back into fighting shape, whatever that may be, for however long it takes (F**K a snap-back)...”
“But man,” she continued. “When you lose a baby halfway through your body just pauses. It has nothing to do. No one to feed. And you’re just...stuck.”
“Stuck with saggy boobs that were prepping to be milk bags, a belly that was ready to bake. I would be lying if I said this did not majorly suck. Not only are you ummmm, extremely, diabolically sad at what could have been, but you have this daily reminder everytime you look in the goddamn mirror.”
“I don’t really have a big ending or positive words lol,” she wrote while starting to wrap up her post. “And don’t say nice things!! I know I know I promise. I know it’s not everything and I know I’m suuuuuch a badass and blah blah blah i just thought I’d be emo for a minute ok!”
“I love you. F**k a scale!,” she concluded.
Teigen and her husband John Legend share two other children together, Luna and Miles, along with their angel baby who they named Jack.
The Lip Sync Battle host announced the news of her pregnancy loss in a heartbreaking Instagram post last year, where she wrote: “We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough.”
“We are so grateful for the life we have, for our wonderful babies Luna and Miles, for all the amazing things we’ve been able to experience. But everyday can’t be full of sunshine. On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it,” she said at the time.