Inside ‘Married At First Sight’ Jamie Otis’ Heartbreak After Miscarriage: ‘I’m Still Struggling’
It’s been five months since Jamie Otis suffered a miscarriage while four months pregnant with her first child, a boy, but for the Married at First Sight star it feels like just yesterday.
Jamie opened up to about how she and her husband, Doug Hehner, are coping with their horrific loss as her late son’s expected due date approaches.
“I’m obviously still struggling a bit,” the reality star told Radar. “I try so hard to be ‘positive’ and think about the future, but this month has been especially difficult.”
While Jamie admitted to still mourning the loss of her first child, she said she and her husband have “moved on in life” and are trying to conceive once again. However, they’ve hit a few bumps in the road.
“We’ve been trying to get pregnant again and with every negative pregnancy test I either want to curl in a ball and cry, or scream and yell at the top of my lungs, ‘why?'” she shared. “I’m trying so hard not to be a ‘Debbie downer,’ but sometimes my emotions get the best of me.”
Jamie and Doug’s late son, Johnathan Edward, was expected to be due on December 20th, something Jamie is still working through.
“Johnny, today marks one week before you were due,” she captioned a photo of her necklace on Instagram. “While everyone is all excited and full of cheer for the holidays I find myself plastering a smile on my face just so I don’t make it obvious how much it hurts inside. Is it crazy to miss you as much as I do? Am I insane for thinking about what you may look like and daydreaming about what could be if you remained safe and sound inside me…it’s been 5 months and sometimes it still feels like I just lost you yesterday.”
Jamie continued, “My precious first born son. I’ll always love you and cherish you sweet angel. I’d rather have you here, but I’m so thankful I have an angel in heaven watching over me.”
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