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Jonah Hill’s Sister Beanie Feldstein Writes Heartbreaking Essay About Brother Jordan’s Sudden Death
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Apr. 17 2019, Published 6:13 p.m. ET
Beanie Feldstein is opening up about the loss of her oldest brother Jordan Feldstein for the first time. The Lady Bird actress, who is also Jonah Hill’s younger sister, wrote a personal essay about what it was like to lose their oldest brother unexpectedly. Jordan passed away in December 2017 from a pulmonary embolism.
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Beanie, 25, in an essay called Grief Glasses for InStyle, wrote, “About a year ago, Jordan Feldstein passed away very suddenly and unexpectedly. He was a remarkably generous, intelligent, loving person. He was an incredible father, beloved by his boys. He was a deeply devoted son. He was a brilliant creative mind. And he was my biggest brother.”
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She continued, “He gave me so many things, including my name.” The Booksmart actress goes by Beanie personally and professionally, although her birth name is Elizabeth.
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Beanie admitted, “The pain is so unbearable at times, so unremitting. Yet, in addition to the deluge of feelings leaking out of me at all times, I have found the process of grief (because it is and will always be a process, never finished, never concluded) to be just as resonant in my mind as it is in my heart.”
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The What We Do in the Shadows star also wrote, “A year ago, I found myself unwillingly in a new club. Well, new to me. A club that has existed for all eternity. A club that I wish did not exist. A club that every time people who are not in it don’t help me feel better, I feel grateful that the world hasn’t hurt them.”
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She continued, “It is a club full of suffering and questioning but is also a community of people that have a truly broadened perspective on the human experience. And if you are also in the club, please know you are not alone, because I am also a begrudging member.”
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Beanie seldom has mentioned her brother since his death. On January 9, 2018, she shared a photo with her oldest brother at Disneyland in 1996. On December 12, 2018, she posted a brief birthday message for him with a throwback photo of Jordan holding her as a baby.