Erika Kirk Says 'There Is No Linear Blueprint for Grief' in Poignant Post 1 Month After Husband Charlie's Shocking Death

One month after the death of Charlie Kirk, his wife, Erika, shared an emotional message via Instagram, explaining her grieving process and how she feels even more connected to him now than ever before.

“...there is no linear blueprint for grief,” she wrote alongside a video of Charlie’s memorial service, where at least 90,000 supporters showed up to honor his legacy at the State Farm Stadium in Glendale, Ariz.

“One day you’re collapsed on the floor crying out the name Jesus in between labored breaths,” Erika continued. “The next you’re playing with your children in the living room, surrounded by family photos, and feeling a rush of something you can only attempt to define as divinely planted and bittersweet joy as a smile breaks through on your face.”

Erika explained how “They say time heals. But love doesn’t ask to be healed,” adding, “Love asks to be remembered. It’s humbling to realize that this magnitude of suffering didn’t steal my love for my husband. It amplified it. It crystallized it. I carry my Charlie in every breath, in every ache, and in every quiet act of day-to-day living as I attempt to relearn what that rhythm will be.”

She continued, “And what l’ve realized through these past 30 days is the greater the suffering, the purer the love. And I have never loved him more than I do now.”

Despite losing the love of her life and father to their two children, Erika previously expressed forgiveness for her husband’s alleged assassin, 22-year-old Tyler Robinson.

The widow of the Turning Point USA activist tearfully forgave Tyler during her husband’s memorial service, telling the crowd, “That young man — I forgive him,” adding, “The answer to hate is not hate. The answer, we know from the Gospel, is love. It’s always love.”

Tyler has not been formally convicted in the case of the activist’s death; however, his lawyer requested to District Judge Tony Graf that his client be granted the opportunity to wear civilian clothes during court appearances, claiming that his shackles and jail attire made him look guilty.

“With each development in the case generating thousands of articles and comments online, the likelihood of potential jurors seeing and drawing conclusions regarding Mr. Robinson’s guilt and or deserved punishment from obvious signs of pretrial incarceration will only increase,” the suspect’s lawyer motioned to the judge.

The lawyer’s statement continued, “Given the pervasive media coverage in this case, the repeated and ubiquitous display of Mr. Robinson in jail garb, shackles, and a suicide vest will undoubtedly be viewed by prospective jurors and will inevitably lead to prosecutive juror perception that he is guilty and deserving of death.”

Tyler’s next court appearance will be on October 30. He has not yet entered into a plea deal regarding his charges.