On Wednesday, December 8, the former NBA player took to Instagram and shared a black image with "A post for my exes and next..." written on it.
"A year ago yesterday I left my ex fiancé at the W Hotel in Atlanta without notice. When she realized I was gone back to my home in San Diego she was livid. I received over 250 calls and text messages over the course of last December from her wanting to fix us," he began. "We were toxic. Independently and collectively."
The retired pro athlete admitted he struggled to call if off with his former flame. "Leaving broke my heart but saved my soul," he continued. "The relationship was abusive. Many times I wanted to go back because-the dysfunction in me was addicted to the abuse. The addict in me hated being alone, the man in me wanted a pretty face to wake up to, it was hard."
"Late nights and early mornings alone wears on a brother. I sought solace in marijuana and a slew of random women, not loving any of them, not really wanting to be with any of them, but it beat being lonely," he candidly added in his post. "One day, my soul opened up, light bulb went off and I wanted and needed to change for ME! My team had worked hard to get me a fresh start. I had to honor that 🙏🏽"
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The 42-year-old said he is drug-free and not in a relationship, as he continues to work on himself. "I am rebuilding a relationship with myself. With my family. I am focused on my faith. My growth. My brand. I am a legend. I own that. I am a recovering addict. I own that too," he wrote.
He revealed his team keeps a record of everything that has happened to him so he can be reminded of how far he has come, but added he is not at his end goal just yet. "I will not let troubled exes from my past haunt me. I will stand in my truth. I owe that to myself and whomever God places next in my life..I truly love you all for loving me~ LO," the post concluded.
Meanwhile, Parr shared her version of events on Instagram — and the two stories didn't seem to align. "A year ago today, I officially walked away from my ex-fiance. I did not tell a soul (not even him); I just left! I knew the more I continued to talk about my unhappiness, the more I would stay comfortable being in it," she captioned a post promoting her upcoming memoir, The Freedom In Walking Away.
"We were less than a year away from getting married. I was scared, hurt, and unsure of the outcome," she wrote, "but I knew if I stayed, I would never be free."
The former flames first went public in August 2019. Odom popped the question in November of that year.