Melissa Rivers' Reveals Adoption Heartbreak: 'I've Cried A Lot'
Melissa Rivers has given a shocking update about how she's feeling about adopting later in life.
The 54-year-old star has been open about her desire to raise another child after her son, Cooper whom she shares with ex-husband John Endicott, is now grown and in his twenties.
While appearing on the Tuesday, April 12, episode of the Behind The Velvet Rope with David Yontef podcast, Rivers explained: "A lot of people told me how incredibly difficult it would be for me to do. I'm over 50. I'm a single person."
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However deep her yearning to give a child a loving and happy home, the producer felt that it would be selfish to raise a kid at this point in her life. "I've really come to the conclusion that I'm not sure it would be fair to a child," she noted, adding she would not want to leave this earth and put the burden of taking care of this person to her son.
"People are like, 'Oh well you could do special needs and they're giving them a wonderful life.' And I do think about that stuff, but I also think, is it really fair? Is it fair? That's what it came down to," the Red Carpet Ready: Secrets for Making the Most of Any Moment You're in the Spotlight Melissa Rivers author stated.
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"I'm not sure anymore," Rivers confessed about the difficult decision. "And believe me I've cried a lot at night because of that realization."
The New York native exclusively opened up to OK! about going back and forth about the decision to welcome another person into her family despite the circumstances.
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"Can I still go throw a ball? Yeah. Do I still play tennis and surf and do all this? Yeah, you know, but then I think about... that's in this moment. What's it going to be like 10 years from now?" she explained of her ability to keep up with a little one.
"I would never want for a child to feel left out, or that they can't experience anything because of me, or my life, or my lifestyle," the Joan & Melissa: Joan Knows Best? star said.
"Just because it's something I want, doesn't mean it's something I should do, and I'm very very conscious of that," Rivers heartbreakingly noted.