Ryan Dorsey Pens Emotional Note About Ex Naya Rivera On Mother's Day: 'Unf**king Believable That This Is Reality'

Ryan Dorsey had a tough Mother's Day, he revealed via Instagram. The actor, who was married to the late Naya Rivera from 2014 to 2018, reflected on their life without the Glee star, who tragically died in 2020 while trying to save her son from drowning.

"❤️ #MothersDay ❤️ I woke up thinking about so much. Josey with his grandma & me by myself. I don’t text Happy Mothers Day b/c that seems like an insane thing to do considering. My mind full of so many thoughts. So many things. So many things to do this Sunday but first thing on the list was to get on with it & head to my least favorite place in the world," he captioned a slew of photos of Rivera with their son, Josey.

He continued, "I tried to go back to sleep for a little longer as if I could just dream through reality and postpone real life a bit longer. But I just lay there staring up through the air in front of my eyes.Flashes of memories of me as a little boy at his age w/ my mom turned into some gratitude for the years I’ve had & still have, turns into the times my son & I had with his and how they were stopped... I know how this day is going to go. Plenty of time for water works, but not now. I fight it & up I get. On the way there’s places I pass that bring back times. This is where we took him when he was little that one time…Damn, we had dinner there. That’s the street I used to live on when we first met…she used to live there on Magnolia."

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Dorsey pointed out places that he went to with the brunette beauty that brought back memories.

"Flowers sold out where I used to always get them. I’ll just get some on the way… I miss my exit as I feel like I didn’t blink for 10 minutes as my mind was wandering with so many flashes," he shared. The harder I think about things, it’s harder to believe. Un-fu*king-believable, still that this is reality. That this is our real life and I have to blink hard & shake my head as if to snap out of it & grasp the facts of it all once and for all.The thing about LA for me is its like every mile or so I drive is a memory of an experience that stings bc it’s gone."

He concluded, "Turning onto Forest Lawn Drive will alway bring the memory of two summers ago. But the memories prior to that I have to be grateful for & our son. So I have my time & my talk & shed my tears. Talk about the dumb s**t that set us apart. Thinking about regrets & how life could be, but how it is. Then I have to go on with my day and…that’s all we can do is go on, go on while we can. Hug your mommas and grandmas, and love ‘em while you can. Forgive & forget, if you can. You don’t wanna maybe wish what if you did one day.❤️🖤-RD."

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The summer of 2020, Rivera had gone missing, and she was confirmed dead on July 13 — just five days after she disappeared during a trip to Lake Piru in Southern California.

According to the autopsy report, River held up her arm and cried for help before drowning.

One year later, Dorsey remembered the singer.

"Today…A year ago we laid you to rest. I still can’t believe it. The year has flown by, so fast that it doesn’t seem like it’s been a year at all," the Big Sky star wrote at the time. "Our boy has grown so much. He’s such an explorer, so inquisitive. He’s sweet, so funny, and his laugh always lights up the room," the actor continued. He’s an intuitive soul to say the least."