Khloé Kardashian Recalls 'Eating Her Feelings’ During Toxic Marriage to Lamar Odom: 'I Didn't Like How That Made Me Feel'

Khloé Kardashian let her past toxic marriage destroy her diet.

During the Wednesday, March 18, episode of the “Khloé in Wonder Land” podcast, the reality star, 41, revealed that ex Lamar Odom’s negative behavior translated into how she nourished her body.

Kardashian previously accused the NBA player of being emotionally abusive toward her throughout their seven-year marriage. Tension stemmed from Odom’s severe drug addiction, which took a toll on the Good American co-founder’s mental health.

“My divorce was really the catalyst to why I became obsessed in a healthy way with working out. I realized during my marriage that I ate so much and I would eat my feelings and I didn't like how that made me feel,” she explained on her podcast. “It then turned to, ‘You have bad skin.’ All these things that are a ripple effect from eating so poorly. I was like, ‘I’m over this. I’m over feeling this way. I’m over feeling like I can never be in a bathing suit.’”

Kardashian admitted that she used to compare herself to “everyone” and even noticed others measuring her up to her sisters.

“Something sort of awakens inside of you where you’re like, ‘I don’t want to live like this anymore,’” she recalled. “And I’ve never had a body type in my head that I’ve wanted to have. I just knew I wanted to be toned one day. I always wanted to be able to show my stomach and feel comfortable [with] a midriff.”

The fashion mogul decided to dedicate herself to working out after separating from Odom in 2013.

“The first six months, at least, of working out are torture,” she remembered. “I started slow. I worked out two times a week, by myself. I got a membership alone at Equinox because I was too embarrassed to work out with a trainer. Even at the gym, I was convinced everyone was looking at me. They’re not. Everyone is doing their own thing.”

After half a year, Kardashian hired her own trainer and started to feel less shameful about her body.

“The first six months to a year, it’s just uncomfortable because you’re still insecure, you’re busting your a-- in the gym, you’re not really seeing a big shift on the scale, but you’ve got to keep going,” she explained. “For me, it was mental that kept me going. I loved how I felt. I felt so accomplished that I did something I set out to do. But for me, it was baby steps. I didn’t even think about diet yet. It was just about getting into the rhythm of working out, all those little things.”

The mom-of-two also admitted that therapy allowed her to keep her mental health in check.

“When I went through breakups and feeling not like myself, feeling like people took a part of me away, going to a therapist and sort of talking out your problems [helped],” Kardashian said.