Pamela Anderson Thinks She Was Depressed for 'Decades,' Admits She Doesn't Remember Those Years of Her Life: 'It's All a Big Blur'

Pamela Anderson is proud of the woman she is today.

While accepting the Zurich Film Festival's Golden Eye Award on Saturday, October 5, the actress reflected on the ups and downs of her career and personal life, admitting, "I never thought I would be on stage, receiving an award like [this]."

"I just want to keep working," the mom-of-two, 57, shared. "I am excited to do more."

Anderson was also in town to promote her new flick The Last Showgirl, a role she took on after a hiatus from showbiz.

"I look at it now and it feels like I went from Baywatch to Broadway," she said, referring to her stint in Chicago. "I don’t know what happened in between, it’s all a big blur."

"I am just happy to be here, in this moment, because I think I have had depression for a couple of decades," the blonde beauty confessed.

The former model explained that her looks pigeon-holed her for quite some time, sharing, "I always knew I was capable of more. It’s great to be a part of pop culture, but it’s a blessing and a curse. People fall in love with you because of a bathing suit."

"It has taken a long time, but I am here," Anderson declared.

The star detailed how she tried to find her authentic self after years of hiding from the limelight.

"I tried to go back to things that happened in my childhood," she said of returning to her hometown in Canada. "I was trying to get my power back. I bought the house of my grandmother and I repainted and rewrote my life."

The Love, Pamela author's new chapter also came with a physical transformation, as she no longer feels the need to wear makeup.

"I am much more comfortable in my own skin, but I also am in an industry that really focuses on beauty. And I thought, ‘I’m going to challenge beauty,’" she explained in 2023.

"I think challenging ourselves is what keeps us young and beautiful," the star continued. "And I think, really genuinely, beauty does come from within and you don’t have to play the game."

Anderson added that ditching cosmetics has been "freeing, and fun, and a little rebellious too."

"Because I did notice that there were all these people doing big makeup looks, and it’s just like me to go against the grain and do the opposite what everyone’s doing," she said.

Variety reported on Anderson's words at the Zurich Film Festival.