With a stream of red and blue lights shining behind her and wearing a stunning sheer black dress, Kelly Clarkson’s rendition of Chris Isaak’s hit song “Wicked Games” will leave you speechless.
“No, I don’t wanna fall in love / No, I don’t wanna fall in love with you,” she repeats the haunting lyrics, proving there is nothing she can’t sing effortlessly.
The somber song comes shortly after OK! exclusively reported that although Clarkson appears to be all smiles while hosting The Kelly Clarkson Show, she is secretly falling apart at the seams, according to sources, six months after filing for divorce from her estranged husband, Brandon Blackstock.
"She's not in the best place emotionally," an insider dished, who says the heartbreak following her split, turmoil over their ongoing messy legal battles and the stress of filming her daytime TV show during a pandemic are all taking a major toll on the singer.
"One day, she just started crying uncontrollably," a second source added. "She felt so lost, so alone. That's when she knew she'd hit rock bottom."
Things between Clarkson and Blackstock have gotten increasingly worse since announcing they were calling it quits after seven years of marriage in June. Blackstock requested $436,000 a month in child and spousal support from Clarkson (the two share daughter River Rose, 6, and son Remington, 4).
Then, in September, Clarkson's former management firm — owned by Blackstock's father, Narvel — sued her, claiming she owed them $1.4 million in unpaid commissions from 2020. She clapped back with a countersuit stating all of their agreements should be voided.
OK! was the first to reveal that the The Voice coach filed a claim to the California Labor Commissioner's Office in October 2020, alleging that her agreement with Starstruck Management was a "fraudulent and subterfuge device" for her managers to perform "illegal services" as agents, due to them being unlicensed in the state of California, and therefore she was owed all the money she earned while under such devices.
As OK! reported, Blackstock fired back at his estranged wife’s claims, denying the accusations that he was charging her outlandish fees during the duration of her contract with his management company. The talent agent reportedly claimed that Clarkson is not entitled to any money that he, his father or their management company earned while working with her over the past 13 years.
As a way of coping with her heartbreak while her messy marital issues play out in the headlines, Clarkson has kept herself busy with her first love: music. OK! learned that the American Idol alum has written 60 songs following her split from Blackstock.
"I have this record that we're working on. It's really great and really honest," Clarkson said. "There's just a lot of questions that I have to answer before releasing it for myself, you know? Whether that be business-wise or personally or whatever. Whatever happens though, it is such a gift. Like, I don't know how anybody, I'll just be real with you, goes through grief like divorce, any kind of grief, any kind of loss, without having an outlet like this."
Clarkson continued: “It is an insane amount of getting it out. I think that's a blessing in itself," she added. "Anytime you go through some life, it's such an awesome thing to have that outlet, regardless of whether people hear it or not."
When it comes to her personal life, Clarkson admitted that she takes a moment to think about what she is “willing to put out there.” She explained, "I hate that I had to go through ‘Because of You’ or ‘Piece by Piece’ [moments]. Certain songs that I've written certainly have shaped me, but have been really hard. They're just difficult decisions to put those out because they're so personal. But the other side of you is like, 'Man, how many people have come up to me.' Like, 'You have no idea. I never wanted to talk about it, I never have told anyone this.'"
The 38-year-old added that "music has that way [of healing], even for me. I listen to other artists and music has a way of healing you."