Matthew Rondeau is confessing his "forever" love for Shanna Moakler days after being arrested on charges of domestic violence.
The male model, 29, took to Instagram only one day after he was released from jail on $50,000 bail following a bizarre Instagram Live in which Rondeau referred to Moakler, 46, as a "f**king w**re," and a "f**king c**t".
Now, it seems the social media influencer has had a change of heart as he penned a lengthy message explaining the situation to his followers, as well as letting his Playboy Playmate ex know that he "won't ever stop loving" her.
"I just wanted to say that the video I made was not the mature way to handle the situation I was in at all," he wrote in a since-deleted Instagram Story. "That video was the example of a young man completely and utterly heart broken."
Rondeau explained that he "acted like a lunatic" because he was hurt and shocked they had gotten "to this point" in their relationship, but emphasized that he "did NOT hit her" at any point.
"I LOVE her and give her so many kisses everyday that I can't do at all now or forever," he added, lamenting that he knew he could never take back the things he had said, but he wanted her to know, "I still love her and miss her more than anything."
"But I am Not a woman beater." The post continued. "I love and respect all woman [sic] and miss her every second of everyday like I know she does too."
Rondeau also alleged that he believes Moakler "feels the same" deep down because she "knows that I still love and care for her and wish the best in life for her, and knows I didn't hit her."
He then blamed the situation partly on the pressures of being in the public eye where people just "assume and point fingers" without knowing the full story.
"I wanted her to be my Wife and Mother to our set of twins we talked about," he said, mentioning that he doesn't care about their nearly twenty year age difference. "Love is love and I wanted to give her more babies since she wanted more. I couldn't have been more happier to be a Father one day."
The model concluded the post by telling fans that Moakler "means the world" to him, but not without placing some of the blame on the former Miss USA runner-up herself.
"I pray that we BOTH get through this hard time and get the help we know we BOTH need." He wrote. "I won't ever stop loving and caring for that person. Because that's love. Deep real love. I wish you nothing but the best. Such is life."
Rondeau is scheduled to appear in court in Van Nuys on June 23.