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Amy Duggar Reflects On 'Difficult Year' On Her Birthday — ‘I Thought The Tears Would Never Stop’
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Sep. 30 2019, Published 3:24 p.m. ET
Amy Duggar turned 33 on September 30! The pregnant Counting On star reflected on her past year and admitted she’s cried endlessly since her grandmother, Mary, died of an accidental drowning in June. Amy also penned a message on Instagram about how she feels leading up to her son’s due date.
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Amy shared new photos from a maternity photoshoot on Instagram. “I'm 33 today,” she told fans. “And every year I'm just even more amazed at what God has done! What a treasure this baby bump has been to my heart.”
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She continued, "It has been a difficult year in so many ways. I thought the tears would never stop, but God knew the perfect time to bring you into our lives little guy!”
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The Counting On star was especially close to her grandmother. “My grandmother was the sweetest,” Amy told OKMagazine.com on August 13. “She was my best friend.”
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Mary passed away in June after an accidental drowning at her home in Arkansas. Amy’s mother Deanna was the one who found her after the incident.
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Amy’s tone was optimistic as she discussed the new chapter in her life. “From your tiny flutters to your serious intense ninja kicks I have carried you for 39 weeks!! I cannot wait till you are in my arms! What a Birthday present you are to me! Even if you do decide to take your sweet little time on arriving! You are a priceless gift from above and I can't wait to be your mama,” she wrote.
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“Not one day has gone by that I don't miss her,” the Counting On star shared on August 5 after a visit to her grandmother’s home. “I wish I could call her, get her opinion on things, go get ice cream and spend the day together.”
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Amy and her husband Dillon King revealed on July 20 that they named their son Daxton Ryan. “Grandma Mary loved the name Dax Ryan and she was so excited about our little guy. Maybe I'm just an emotional basket case right now (hello hormones) but... I miss her a little extra today,” she told fans.
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She added, “I miss everything and it's so hard to believe that she's gone. I know she's in a much better place but still so hard to believe that she's no longer with us. Hug your loved ones close. I mean very close. Tomorrow isn't promised to anyone.”
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