On Wednesday, May 12, the wife of John Legend took to Twitter to express her remorse for cyber-bullying Stodden. “Not a lot of people are lucky enough to be held accountable for all their past bulls**t in front of the entire world,” Teigen began as part of her four-part apology. "I’m mortified and sad at who I used to be."
While admitting she was an "insecure, attention seeking troll" when she sent those messages, noting she is "ashamed and completely embarrassed at my behavior," Teigen acknowledged that "nothing compared to how I made Courtney feel."
Teigen — who has won the public over with her hilarious online remarks and banter — explained that she's tried in recent years to "be beloved" and give online users "joy." She now feels she let everyone down — a feeling she described as "nearly unbearable, truly."
"These were not my only mistakes and surely won’t be my last as hard as I try but god I will try!!" the Cravings cookbook author continued.
Teigen told her Twitter followers that she tried connecting with "Courtney privately, but thought the public also needed to hear her words." She wrapped up her apology to Stodden by saying she hopes the blonde babe "can heal now knowing how deeply sorry I am."
Teigen then apologized to her fans, admitting, "I let you guys down," but "will forever work on being better than I was 10 years ago, 1 year ago, 6 months ago."
Earlier this week, Stodden — who came out as non-binary last month and shared their new pronouns, they/them/their — alleged Teigen bullied her in 2011, when they were just 16, on Twitter.
"She wouldn’t just publicly tweet about wanting me to take ‘a dirt nap’ but would privately DM me and tell me to kill myself. Things like, ‘I can’t wait for you to die,'" they claimed in a Daily Beast interview. A "dirt nap" refers to a dead person's burial.
In March, Stodden, 26, revealed Teigen, 35, never reached out to her for her hurtful words years later. And after the mother-of-two announced she was taking a hiatus from Twitter that same month over negative comments, Stodden called Teigen out for being a hypocrite.
At the time of Teigen's announcement, the model shared a March 2011 tweet Teigen allegedly wrote. "Saying Courtney Stodden's FB age got shut down for being too sexy is like saying the Nazi's were just meanies. As in, not quite," her tweet read, according to Stodden's screenshot. "What a shame #chrissyteigen is leaving Twitter," Stodden wrote alongside the old post.
Despite going through some "dark times," with Stodden admitting there were times where they "didn't want to be alive anymore," they insisted the haters made them stronger. "I thank everyone who bullied me actually at the end of the day, cause it helped me and served me in a way that made me who I am. So thank you bullies," Stodden exclusively told OK!.
Stodden rose to fame at 16 when she married then 51-year-old Doug Hutchison, now 60. According to the singer, a lot of the bullying began around that time.