Actor Dax Shepard is getting candid about his battle with addiction. In an extremely personal episode of his podcast “Armchair Expert,” the Parenthood alum said his issues with prescription pain medicine started back up again after recently injuring his hand and shoulder.
“I go ride a lot,” he explained about his love of motorcycles. “After I ride sometimes on the track, I feel I’m entitled to take two Vicodin at the end of the day because I am in pain. That again doesn’t feel that crazy.”
Though he is still on the mend from a motorcycle accident in August, Shepard began slipping into bad habits around six months ago — dealing with another injury. The actor noticed he started “getting shadier and shadier” when it came to taking pills.
“For the last eight weeks maybe, I don’t know… I’m on them all day," the 45-year-old confessed. "I’m allowed to be on them at some dosage because I have a prescription.
“And then I’m also augmenting that. And then all the prescriptions run out and I’m now just taking 30 mils Oxys that I’ve bought whenever I decide I can do it.”
The father-of-two admitted that he was “lying” to people in his life while taking excessive amounts of pain pills — he had been prescribed and buying — and carrying around this “enormous secret.”
“Happy Friday Armcherries!,” a post from the podcast's official Instagram account read. “This is miniature mouse writing! We have an extra episode today. It’s a highly personal and extremely brave update from @daxshepard to you.”
The Employee of the Month star explained that he went to several AA meetings following his confession to his wife and friends. On September 1, his family celebrated his 16th year sober (Shepard previously struggled with alcohol and cocaine addiction). However, the actor confessed he was actually high on pills at a meeting where he received praise for the major 16-year milestone. "It was the worst hour of my life," he said on his podcast.
In a later meeting, he came completely clean. “When it was over,” Shepard said, “I actually, mentally — for the first time in a very long time — felt optimistic.”
“He was an addict for many, many years and he pulled himself out of it, and he’s been sober for 11, 12 years now,” she said. “And he knows many times he’s messed up and how many times he’s been really close to losing everything.
“I always think, if I’m on my deathbed, what am I gonna be thinking about?” she told the outlet. “And it won’t be some random movie I participated in, or some TV show. It will be my family.”